** I wrote this in early November, but wasn't able to post anything while I was travelling**
Since I came to Africa to work in HIV medicine (among many other less altruistic sounding motives), I was a bit surprised looking back at what I’ve written about to see how little I’ve actually posted about my medical experiences here other than those where I was the patient. In many ways I’ve hesitated to write about medicine as I’ve seen it in Kisumu. As a doctor practicing in a new place with very different resources and very different problems, it can be very easy to talk about what seems to be lacking, or things that aren’t done the way we’d do it back home (often with the implication that different = bad, or worse than we would do it).
I have seen things that have shocked and surprised and saddened me, but I’m really not sure how useful it is for me to write about them here, either for myself or anyone left who might be reading this. I mean, it’s no big secret that Kenya is a developing country and that there is a lot less money and a lot less capacity to pay for medical treatment than we see in the US. Then again, how often do I rant and rave against an injustice that has been done to one of my primary care patients at SFGH, or am I horrified by the fact that I have had to do things that are below the “standard of care” because we lack the political will to make that standard of care available to everyone in the US?
In reflecting back on FACES, the feeling I am left with most strongly is amazement at how much this small organization is able to accomplish for their patients. Yes, there is NGO money behind it, but I feel as though so much of what is being done has come to be through the sheer force of will of every single person working there. It’s not like there’s one, Paul Farmer-like individual who through the cult of personality has been able to accomplish great things. Instead there are many, many Kenyan people at every level of the organization who say, “this is what is right, this is what our clients deserve,” and then find a way to make it happen. It’s a wonderful sight to see.
The pace of medicine moves differently at FACES; things we would admit someone to the hospital for, run a million tests to work up, give some expensive treatment for, with the goal of finding an answer within a week don’t really occur. But problems - HIV-related or not - present, minds come together and a work up is undertaken that may take months and be lacking all the latest technological bells and whistles but is really often enough. Sometimes an answer is not found and one of the empiric treatments that was tried works and we assume we know the diagnosis. And sometimes the things we tried don’t work and the patient doesn’t do well. But don’t we see that all the time?
When I first got here, the second patient I saw walked into clinic incredibly sick: febrile to 40, tachy to 130, CD4 around 80, with a headache for a few days, cough for a few weeks, and abdominal pain. Oh and by the way she was 34 weeks pregnant, too. I looked at her and felt completely useless – take me away from the tertiary care center, strip away the 8 billion lab tests and scans and consults that she would get from our ED and I felt like I couldn’t do a single thing despite having the end of my residency looming not far away. We even entertained a brief discussion of whether or not she really needed to be admitted, since she didn’t have any money. But so quickly it became normal when we saw a sick person to figure out what we could and couldn’t do diagnostically, make a plan to treat the one or two things that seemed most likely, and send them off with the hope that those tests would happen and that when we saw them again in a couple days we would have more info from tests and treatment response to go on.
As a medical resident here for a month, one can’t really hope to do or accomplish much. It would be an incredible arrogance to assume that my brief presence could make a significant impact. I was really here for my own learning, to see a new system, to learn new ways of thinking and to become inspired by the amazing individuals I met at FACES. Hopefully some of that will have a positive impact on what I do and how I treat patients in the future. I really hope that one or two things I may have done while I was here were at least slightly useful, so that I will have contributed just a little bit with my presence instead of only gaining myself.